From left: Kevin McHale, Cory Monteith and Jenna Ushkowitz.Photo: Jeff Spicer/Getty; Jason LaVeris/FilmMagic; Michael Tullberg/Getty

LONDON, ENGLAND - NOVEMBER 19: Kevin McHale attends the “Dear Evan Hansen” opening night at the Noel Coward Theatre on November 19, 2019 in London, England. (Photo by Jeff Spicer/Getty Images); LOS ANGELES, CA - JUNE 08: Actor Cory Monteith attends the 12th annual Chrysalis Butterfly Ball on June 8, 2013 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Jason LaVeris/FilmMagic); HOLLYWOOD, CA - NOVEMBER 08: Actress Jenna Ushkowitz attends the Los Angeles opening night performance of “A Bronx Tale” at the Pantages Theatre on November 8, 2018 in Hollywood, California. (Photo by Michael Tullberg/Getty Images)

GleealumsJenna UshkowitzandKevin McHaleare getting real about how an “eerie” storyline on the hit musical dramedy now hits different following thetragic deathof their former costarCory Monteith.

“He died in Cincinnati after being dishonorably discharged,” Carole explained on the show. “Honey, he had a drug problem that he tried to get over when he came home — for you, mostly — but then he would just disappear for a day or a week sometimes. One day, he just didn’t come back. It was an overdose.”

The cast of ‘Glee’.Courtesy Fox Television

Glee Don’t Stop Believin'

Admitting that the episode “hit a little too close to home” now, the duo confessed that the storyline threw them for a loop as they had no memory of the scene.

“We probably don’t remember it because we thought it was just another story line for Finn that was really well done,” Ushkowitz said. “But in hindsight, the whole through line of this story line — every line that he said about it — really just struck a different chord that resonated or mirrored his life too closely. It was just really sad to watch.”

“Yeah, it felt really dark and morbid watching it," McHale added. “But obviously, there was no way to know what the future was going to be… it just felt very eerie.”

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Cory-Monteith

Monteith played Finn Hudson on the popular Fox series from its premiere in May 2009 until his sudden death from a drug overdose at age 31 on July 13, 2013.

In November 2022,GleecreatorRyan Murphyrevealedhis thoughts about filming the showfollowing Monteith’s death while appearing on theAnd That’s What You REALLY Missedpodcast.

Only one month after Monteith’s death, the cast filmed a tribute episode titled “The Quarterback”, which aired Oct. 10, 2013 as part of the show’s fifth season. Murphy expressed that if it were up to him, the show would have “stopped for a very long time and probably not come back.”

“It’s an episode I was able to watch once,” he said of the tribute episode. “And I never looked at it again.”

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“Now if this had happened, I would be like, ‘That’s the end,'” Murphy added. “Because you can’t really recover from something like that.”

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source: people.com